Of course.

[heyuwiththeface]

Based on the information provided, the Entry HAS NOT BEEN SELECTED for further processing for the 2010 Electronic Diversity Visa program.

Do not pass go, do not collect two hundred dollars. I'm exhausted, and I feel the gap in civil rights much more in this moment. If Kate was names Keith and had a penis, we wouldn't be sitting ten thousand miles away. I wouldn't even have had to know her very long. If she had a penis a ring on her finger would be her green card.

Unfortunately, only because we choose to live our lives as the homosexuals that whatever higher power made us, we are stuck in the back of the line. Make what ever religious argument you like, but I love her. No one chooses to live a life where they are persecuted because of whose hand they hold or kiss good night.

I'm a b it of a sucker. I put faith in this whole lottery thing and I shouldn't have. Why should this have worked anyway? Canada didn't work. Applying for school is a stupid and grossly expensive idea. The heathcare worker visa thing didn't work, this didn't work. Moving there in April didn't work either.

So now, we have to wait until November next year. If that gets fucked up... I don't know what else to do. We have fought so fucking hard up to this point that I felt like we earned it. If I had gone to college... I could be in Australia or Canada now. But, in failing to do that 4 years ago, I fucked it up.

This is jumbled because I am crying and not really sure what to think, so I'm just typing. I want to crawl into a tiny place and hide, but there are things I need to do tonight because I have guests coming. I want Kate to hold me, but because we are gay, she can't just traipse in here, marry me, and try to figure it out from there. And I realize the green card process for federally recognized marriages isn't easy either, but the spouse has the RIGHT to at least try.

She has the right to pretend she isn't coming to see me when she goes through customs when she comes here for fear that they will refuse her entry because she might attempt to stay.

I hate this. We want to be together. I wish that was enough.

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